External effects

People tell you you've changed ! is that right ?? someone is trying to proof that you changed ! is that the way you wanted it ?.

yeah sometimes i hate i love or i hurt 

but , all this was for myself to change 

i keep telling myself that this person doesn't worth it 

i actually already know but i don't deserve it !!

sometimes i try to keep cool

sometimes i let them know

sometimes i even pack my bags to walk out the door

my reply is yes , my motto changed for now 

cuz how life taught me

and how people treated me !!

and others experience all have gave me a lesson

I've grow older

i've tasted pain

i've saw many many people as me and even worst

I've grew stronger 

i've got whats life 

i just knew that i'm alone 

i knew that no-one was there for me 

or bothered to ask :')

I've tasted so much words that even doesn't make sense 

fake words hurts

fake smiles hurt s

fake hugs hurt s

fake friendship hurts

& fakkkkkkkke……………… hurtssss allllllloooooooooototttttttttt

staying alone hurts 

people ditching you hurts and back stabbers hurttssssssss 

&its hurts a lot cuz I've tried

people act like caring about you hurts 

everything  in this life hurts 

words hurt 

and sometimes friends hurts……….

crying hurts 

self harm hurts

as long as bullying hurts

feeling unwanted also hurts 

and being capable to control these problems for too long hurts

let me say that i'm strong enough to face my difficulties in this life and life isn't it about finding who you really are ,, its about creating yourself >>>>and being a fighter for strength and capability  

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